On turning 6!/6^2+1

Here’s to the..
0-7

1st heartbeat
1st birthday party
1st scars off the bicycle
1st chocolate drink
1st 1½ hr. trips to Subic
1st Steak Town drama
1st rented betamax
1st set of flashcards
1st game boy cartridge
1st standing in the corner
1st standing in the back
1st yummy peanut brittle from Baguio
1st JEST camp
1st stepping out of the classroom
1st notification slip in math
1st stolen one thousand bucks
1st trip to PGH and Manila Bay
1st sleeping over sister’s debut
1st sleeping over parent’s silver wedding anniv
1st Santa’s gift for being a nice kid
1st pretending to be asleep so that I wouldn’t have to brush my teeth
1st stolen toy
1st Macarena
1st getting sick of hearing Madonna songs getting played over and over again

8-15

1st trip to the bat kingdom
1st loneliness panic distress signal over Pocketbell
1st P2 deposit for a bottle of Coke
1st walkman
1st POGs
1st Koosh Ball for touchball
1st map of the world
1st Super Buboy and the hand magnifying glass
1st Super Buboy’s American counterpart, Where’s Wally?
1st hot fudge sundae
1st up and down four floors for twin popsies
1st LSS
1st set of comic book characters
1st piggy bank savings given away
1st eight hours at McDo
1st caroling down south
1st divergence of paths
1st Alanis Morisette song demonic when rewind-ed
1st remote controlled toy robot
1st shockwave game
1st South Park VHS
1st birthday at the hospital on the verge of death
1st traumatic chalk incident
1st library card (to borrow the Bernstein [?] bears books)
1st one whole wasabi eaten
1st drawing of taal lake
1st Pugad Baboy
1st slush puppy
1st Tri-Isys 36 kbps internet access username and password
1st RPG completed without using GameShark
1st unpaid meal card
1st three-pointer
1st walk up the mountain
1st castle slide
1st lazy summer days building Tamia tracks
1st Nintendo ES
1st jog around the ikot
1st set of the Chronicles of Narnia
1st live uaap game
1st piano lessons
1st humiliation
1st trip to the beach
1st cute teacher
1st race
1st octopus ride
1st knowing what a ‘tsubibo’ is moment
1st night alone at home watching Mr. Bean reruns
1st niece
1st art contest
1st dog
1st dog barf on shorts
1st chasing elephants in a crazy dialect
1st real trouble
1st heartbreak
1st Survivor: Aussie Outback fever
1st you’re the one I’m gonna be with forever
1st kiddie suicide attempt
1st runaway feeling
1st emo little manhattan moment
1st last seen her on the elevator
1st cold summer
1st nickelodeon
1st Kazaa music download
1st sleepless over the yellow brick road
1st encounter with the supernatural/paranormal
1st wanting to go to Chico, California
1st N5210
1st trip away
1st missing her
1st grand canyon
1st Disneyland
1st Sacramento Kings fan
1st candyman chant in front of the mirror
1st missing her more
1st seeing her again
1st cd walkman
1st case of growing up
1st website created
1st nephew
1st tragic accident
1st stranded on a paddleless lifeboat in the middle of the pool
1st CS (F1+4+2)
1st string of overnights and tribal councils
1st rock bottom, stunner, et. al.
1st play watched more than once
1st sprint up the aisle and away from her
1st dancepad (and “S” result in “Boom Boom” and “Paranoia”)
1st Mario Kart 64, Star Fox, etc.
1st Tekken Tag Tournament
1st me and you against the world moment
1st kumon worksheet
1st set of Friendster testimonials
1st reading her text over and over again
1st pumpi and ffi
1st tear over math
1st goal
1st crazy night
1st best friend
1st getting mud on your face while we’re at 7 lakes
1st arnis, conan and everything that’s wickedly Pisay P.E.
1st 2 hours under the stars
1st love with the best friend
1st driving practice
1st lantern parade
1st band practice
1st crazy trips to Rockwell
1st performance
1st two places at once
1st air band
1st geometric tesselations
1st group photo
1st stint as a trigo teacher
1st Paskorus
1st cave made out of crumpled newspaper

15-21

1st crazy summer
1st last time I saw you under the overpass with your books
1st contaminated petri dish
1st mocha, the scientific calculator
1st Pinoy Ako (and the fuss on Orange and Lemons+Bloomfields)
1st walking home under the rain
1st prom
1st Ramayana
1st rabbit on the moon
1st supply and demand curve
1st major birthday surprise
1st math play (yes, meron)
1st “imna imna imna na..”
1st austre trip to Makati for fetal calf serum
1st set of extracted VCO, cervically dislocated mice, chi-squared tests and RRLs
1st set of DNA jokes (Anong tawag sa DNA na mag-isa sa island?)
1st seriously thinking of a career in forensics
1st mistake
1st redemption
1st credit card
1st reprimand over overconsumption
1st mixed signals
1st youth camp
1st worship
1st West Side Story is love
1st stint as pre-calculus mentor
1st Cinemalaya-related endeavor
1st modeling stint
1st International Leaders’ Conference
1st 6-yr math completion
1st major dilemma
1st set of Chinese friends
1st I’m starting to hate driving around Manila moment
1st Sipnayan
1st epic fail
1st smaller and smaller circles + chic lit
1st and you give yourself away moment
1st saddest goodbyes
1st hamster car
1st no regrets
1st lonelist December
1st new friends
1st space shuttle ride
1st given December to bounce back on
1st Hannah Montana in 3-D haha
1st P3,000 overnight parking violation fee
1st (cost minus salvage value) over useful life
1st div(curl F)=0 for conservative vector forces F
1st GK build
1st paying the driver to give his parking space at the fort
1st trip to the Antipolo Retreat House
1st series torrent
1st accidental dance
1st admiration for a Filipino poet
1st (and so far only) college cut
1st encounter with Poisson (and other distributions) paradise
1st airplane alone
1st “daghang gab-eee!”
1st college late
1st mac
1st narrowing it down to three
1st red mango heaven
1st missing driving in the mountains of Antipolo
1st and you give yourself away as well moment
1st finally letting go
1st narrowing it down to one but will wait a little longer
1st mocha latte, sci. cal. deux
1st staying really nocturnal
1st k star equals a long list of variables
1st Newton’s, Euler’s, Runge-Kutta method, etc.
1st Comme çi comme ça
1st Hen Panta
1st tweet
1st gorillas in HD
1st Glee LSS
1st set of printed shirts
1st traffic violation ticket
1st even if the sky is falling down (epic flood) moment
1st nation uniting for a week against terror epic flood

and to the 1st of everything else.

… and when tomorrow comes we’d just do them all again. :) we are so young. :P Anyway, I’m glad to have shared some of these moments with a lot of you. All of you are God’s blessings to me. I think for the past 20 years, my birthday has always been dramatic. I think it’s time that today remains ordinary and stable.

I’m happy to have spent the past week going back and forth from my house, to the grocery and school, donating all that I can give and getting deployed to different areas in order to help those in need. The best and most meaningful birthday week so far. Sadly though, up until now, a lot of people need help. =(

Cheerios, Stay Safe and God Bless everyone!

and i can't convince myself

personally, i shouldn't have any qualms about people leaving. but,
this is MY manila. no matter how devastated it is right now, i have decided to stay.

haha anyway.

LSS-Release Me-Agnes Carlsson

...

on second thought,

i'd rather not die because of the people i love. :)

...

What if I die now and no one cared?

Just a thought.

scourging != scouring KASI

sipnayan has always been a humbling experience

change in time

Denoted by delta t, ∆t, the change in time is a notion of something real. It's so fast to the point that it's a mere slice of reality. At that slice, we see a cross section of everything. In that cross section we are tempted to make rash reactions. And then, as the change in time diminishes, these mistakes are frozen and irrevocable.


OKAY LABO :))

Something I'd laugh at 20 (plus/minus 1) yrs from now?

My closest friends know that for the past few days, I've been forcing myself to stay up 'til the wee hours of the morning. I don't want say why, and maybe it's not proper to do so. Tomorrow, I'm going home, away from the sadness, the bad vibes, the depressions I have been keeping to myself here in Manila. I'm not sure if I'll be happier there, but I have this feeling of inner movement within me. Something deep inside me wants to escape. I'll be bringing notes and all acads stuff of course.

I'm just worried that when I come back, the stress will compound again, depressions will seep back in and loneliness lingers.

She'll be leaving in a couple of days. People say that I'm hurting myself for caring. For showing unreciprocated care.

That's my human error.

update!

I have a twitter! follow follow!
http://www.twitter.com/stochasticisms

LSS: I'm your biggest fan, I'll follow you until you love me..

OH. AND YEAH. I failed Fin109 LT1.